Showing posts with label Stress. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Stress. Show all posts

Sunday, February 28, 2016

How do I get off this roller coaster?

I'm doing everything I know how to do to lose weight, yet I just keep going down then up again. Everything that used to work no longer does. Or it works briefly then stops. On January 16th I had that big drop after a week of returning to Phase 1 eating again. Since then it's been a roller coaster ride. Seriously, here are the ups and downs.

16 Jan - 84.1 kg - 185.41 lb.
23 Jan - 85.3 kg - 188.05 lb.*
30 Jan - 86.7 kg - 191.14 lb.
06 Feb - 86.3 kg - 190.26 lb.
13 Feb - 84.7 kg - 186.73 lb
20 Feb - 87.6 kg - 193.12 lb.*
27 Feb - 86.3 kg - 190.26 lb.

I kept doing Phase 1 for those first few weeks. The star means I had my cycle that week. I should have dropped weight after that, yet the end of January and start of February I weighed more. So I returned to intermittent fasting. Slight drop 13th Feb, but of course another star week followed.

So this past week I changed it up again. Instead of going entire days fasting, which just wasn't working, I decided to fast 23 hours each day, eating just one meal at dinner time within a one hour eating window. I've done this for over a week now, and combined it with a fair bit of exercise. Besides walking about an hour each day, I've done heaps of work around the house. Things like raking, shovelling and hauling a gazillion wheelbarrows full of rocks from what used to be an above-ground pool area in the back yard, and tearing down an old shed by hand this weekend. My body is definitely feeling all the extra exercise lately, trust me, and there is a lot more to come. Did any of this help me lose weight?

Well, the first few days I lost some. Then I stayed the same for a few days, then back up today almost where I started. I am beyond frustrated. My husband tells me to just be happy where I am and just eat healthy and not worry about it so much, but if I am fighting this hard to lose weight and I stop fighting, I will regain even more! I know I will. Trust me, I would LOVE to give up the fight. But I'm not going to. So what to do next?

Well I still haven't found a chance to make that doctor's appointment, between all the extra work to be done around the house and being busy as hell at work. I haven't had a chance to call my doctor, but I will find the time. I'm thinking the progesterone cream isn't helping as I'd hoped though. So I'll try something else. What else can I do? I'm going to try heaps smaller portions. Literally cut my dinner portions in half, have just an Atkins shake for breakfast, and a small can of tuna or the other half of my dinner for lunch. I just don't know what else to do at this point. I feel like I've got nothing worth blogging about anymore, yet here I am. I guess I'm not ready to give up on that yet either.

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Coping with stress ... without food!?

I've had the day from hell. Work was crazy, one crisis after another, solve this problem and there's another one needing immediate attention ... so I didn't get to finish the project my boss needed. Stress levels are through the roof. Hubby calls to tell me I gotta stop at the store on the way home, but I first gotta race to pick up my new glasses before they close. I finally get home and he's yelling at me for not questioning the bill for my glasses! Honestly with the day I'd had I just didn't look at it, I just paid it. I didn't realise it was $95 more than it should have been, I was just focused on all the things I still had to do, so I paid it and left. I'll deal with it tomorrow. I went to change and relax a bit but couldn't lay down cuz he had his tools on the bed ... again. I put them away, laid down for a few minutes and checked Facebook. I then went to heat up some leftovers for dinner but the kitchen counter was a mess and sink full of dishes as he hadn't cleaned up after himself ... again.

I love my husband but he drives me insane sometimes. I work outside the home. He is supposed to be taking care of the housework but he seldom does and I often get home from a busy day's work to find I have to do his job, too, and I just flipped out this time. I cleaned up the mess and came back to the bedroom to cry and blow off steam. I still haven't had any dinner.

Why am I telling you all this? I guess because my usual way to deal with stress is to eat. Not just eat, but binge! I would be hopping in the car and heading out to get some cookies and chocolate or caramel or something! Truthfully, I don't want any of that now, but that means instead of stuffing down my feelings I actually have to feel them! Eek! So I had a good cry, let go of the stress, and then sat down to blog about it. If it weren't getting so dark I might go for a walk. As it is I'll probably go heat up some leftover lemon pepper and rosemary chicken and that's about it. I'm not used to coping with stress without using comfort food, so this is new ground for me. Life throws shit at you sometimes. But I'm glad that reaching for junk was not my first impulse and I'm not even fighting the urge to do so ... I really don't feel like eating. Weird. But cool.