I seriously don't know what to make of this week's weigh-in. I was hoping to beat last week's weight of 85.6 kg (188.72 lb) and keep moving toward my goal of losing 100 pounds before my one year anniversary date on Dr. Poon (19th August). That's not too much to ask when I'm this close, right? I know things have been crawling ever so slowly lately, but I still have a couple of weeks left to do it.
So Saturday morning I was hoping to see 85 kg or less. I get on the scale and see 83.7 kg. Holy crap! Could it be true? No way! I am not one to double-check but I seriously could not help myself, I wanted to see it again! So I got on the scale again and this time it said 84.7 kg. What? A whole kilo difference? I wasn't imaging it, it really did say 83.7 the first time - even the body fat, bone and water percentages were different the second time, and hubby saw the first number too, so it really did change. What the hell!? Third time's a charm, right? I checked one more time. Still 84.7 kg. That first weight must have been a fluke so I decided to go with the 84.7. Hubby suggested I check it again after my walk. OK.
We went for our walk and it was really chilly out. I was so cold I started running just to warm up. I ran for maybe 5 minutes, then walked with him and the dog for awhile until we turned back and that cold breeze hit me again. I ran for the next five minutes or so again, and walked the rest of the way. When we got home I got back on the scale and this time it said 86.2 kg! WTF? There is no way my weight can fluctuate 3-6 pounds in an hour! I was so pissed. I know the number on the scale should not determine my emotional state for the day, but after all these awful fluctuations to see a new low weight only to have it yanked away -- well it really hit me hard. I only lost about 1.5 kilos during the month of June, so I had really high hopes for July. Ending it pretty much right where I started is not fair. Not after teasing me with 83.7 then 84.7. Maybe the 83.7 was a fluke, but I got 84.7 twice so does it count? Do I write it down for this week or not? I was ready to give up, just throw in the towel. Hubby said all the right things and supported me as he always does, but I just was not hearing it, I was pissed.
I was so frustrated I forgot to enter it in my weekly spreadsheet until late last night. Not sure what I should put, just for the hell of it I entered 83.7 kg to see what I would have weighed had that been real. It would have been 184.53 pounds which would have meant I had lost 102.74 pounds! No way! So what if it was 84.7 then? That would be 186.73 pounds which would mean I had lost 100.53 pounds! Either way I lost over 100 pounds -- except for that final weigh-in after my walk which is still where I'm at today! I cannot believe I got to 100 pounds lost yesterday and it was yanked away because I went for a walk!? I feel like I was robbed, I really do. So what weight do I list for this week? I think the 84.7 should count being as I confirmed it and I usually weigh first thing, not after a walk. It's not where I am now but it would hardly be the first time I gained the day after a new low weight. Only this time it was an hour after!
I did some research last night and found that apparently getting different weights like that on my particular scale is not uncommon - there's a forum where people with the same brand and model scale as me complained about the same thing happening to them. But I haven't seen anything like that until yesterday. So today I dug out my old scale (which doesn't show body fat or water %) and it agrees with the other scale. Well pretty much, it says 86.1 instead of 86.2. So that's where I'm at this week, I don't know what to make of it. Did I lose 100 pounds or not? Do I write 84.7 or 86.2? I give up.