No, I've not gone AWOL, I'm here. Not spending all my time worrying about dieting and failing, not focusing on fighting the battle again has freed me up to do something else. Reading. Specifically reading books that are very different from what I've been reading for the last six years, which was all China Study, McDougal, Esselstyn, Robbins, etc., etc. I've instead been reading things like The Paleo Diet, The Paleo Solution, Primal Blueprint, etc., and then I found this: Beyond Broccoli, wherein a former vegan 'embraces meat, and dispels the myths.' That one is interesting because she too spent 6 years eating vegan only to end up fatter than before. While she doesn't doubt some people can thrive on a vegan diet, she feels many of us cannot. She does recommend eating your meat and eggs raw or lightly cooked, and that's a bit too yuck for me.
I guess I'm wanting to at least consider other views on diet and what might work for me. When I read the books promoting veganism, they cited a lot of evidence and long term studies and it all made sense to me. But so do these books. They are very convincing, in fact, and clearly what I've been doing ain't working. And I personally know three people who have dropped weight eating this way.
But can i make the switch? Can I give up grains and eat some meat? Honestly I've not touched meat in so long and the idea of trying it isn't all that appealing. Where would I begin? It doesn't have to be a lot, it can still be a mostly vegetarian diet. You give up grains and dairy, but eat more protein and fat.
I'm not ready to worry again just yet, for now I've got another book to finish, so I'll write again when I've had a chance to decide what I'm going to do. I just wanted to check in.