My friend Carla commented I should consider taking a break from dieting ... at least the part that involves worrying about what to eat, counting it, logging it, measuring it, etc. maybe she's on to something. Now it's not an excuse to eat whatever I want, binge, etc., but after all these years of dieting I should be able to make healthy choices instinctively most of the time. I know what to eat, I shouldn't need to plan, log and count every morsel. I think I might give it a go this week. I've had so much to worry about between family issues and work stress that dieting is one more stress I don't need to worry about.
Then I worry I'll feel guilty that I'm not 'doing something' about my weight, because Lord knows I can't be this weight and not DO something about it. Cuz I'm up a little from last week. I was 118.3 kg last week and 118.7 this week. That's 400 grams. I'd convert that to pounds for you, but just this moment I'm not going to worry about it. :)
I also know I need to be more active. I saw a woman at the mall yesterday, 20 years older than me I'd say, and she was very heavy and used a push walker that she could stop and sit on from time to time while her husband went into the shops. Nearby I noticed a trim woman about the same age that seemed fit and healthy, and needed no assistance. I thought to myself, which one do I want to be in 20 years if I'm still around? Fitness is important. I don't want to be just choosing a different thing to worry about, but I would like to go for a walk or do a video workout a few days a week. I'll check in through the week and let you all know how I'm going.