This week I thought I'd try cooking again ... I've been doing my own shakes and frozen vegetarian meals for weeks and then I stalled and gained a bit prior to TOM's arrival. I wanted something that wasn't pasta for a change, so I planned to cook this week and of course returned to my favorite vegan, McDougall-friendly meals. But they haven't satisfied me and in fact I've found myself much more tempted by things I don't normally want anymore! Cookies and chocolate type things. Things I don't want to be thinking about, much less eating. Why? Seriously, I was more satisfied on the shakes and frozen meals plan, and that was eating just 1,000 to 1,200 calories most days.
I guess I'll go back to the shake/frozen meal plan. It had one definite advantage and that's not having to think about what to eat ... have shakes, grab a frozen meal, piece of fruit ... easy! I've been dieting and planning meals and thinking about what to eat for years. I feel like my whole adult life has been dieting, with intermittent periods of gorging / bingeing when I was 'off the wagon' in between plans. It's not fair ... alcoholics can at least quit cold turkey and never touch the stuff again. You can't give up food. Yes, you can try eating healthier but for someone like me that's like expecting the alcoholic to just switch to light beer. Not helping!
Sorry ... Just ranting cuz I get sick of the fight sometimes. Sick of hearing people like me should just 'put down the fork once in a while' on one hand and 'dieting doesn't work and causes weight gain' on the other. What do you do when nothing you try works and you just don't want to try anymore? If everything happens for a reason, then what's the reason for constant struggle with my weight and repeated failure at doing something about it? I can't see it. But if I give up the fight I'll find myself 300 pounds and diabetic. I'm over it, seriously. Thanks for letting me vent, I'll be back at it tomorrow.